Oh man, that is not okay….. That….Wow. Okay, as your friend I’m gonna say that sounds like some of the shit my dad used to pull. It is really not okay to be telling you stuff like no one will be able to put up with you. *hugs you while huffing*
Thank you. Dad just becomes a huge shit and basically just goes mean and hurtful. I wasn’t hurt by him, just angry, because sometimes when he gets angry it’s just a big *ROLL EYES* moment. It’s frustrating and I’ve made it a point to try and get out, or let him see how unimpressed I am.
And nowthat the nager has flared down come the tears.
I don’t event
Wow, that’s some toxic.
Can’t really say for sure, but: I get the feeling that there is a certain amount of “upset about X, don’t know or can’t talk about it, yelling about Y” going on here. (I mean, in what your parents are doing.)
That is definitely a thing dad does, he takes out his anger and his feelings spiral out on little things because he’s upset about some other thing. Like what happened with the food on Sunday when we didn’t compliment it enough or what not. Not really a thing that mom does, but I think she has a point about my physical exercise and its lack, but I hate talking about weight and body shaming and anything calling me fat and I hate how much she obsesses over it and makes it a priority when it isn’t a big priority for my health and it’s something I will get to after I get my license.
Mom doesn’t have an easy time, to be honest, and I feel bad about it, because she was never this hurtful, but I think we’ve tired her out and now she’s a lot more outspoken with the hurtful things she was good at holding back before. Or I don’t know!
But fuck this shit. I can do all these things, I can indeed, force myself to do them for quite a while! And then I will be exhausted. I am building up reserves for fucking going out with my life, which will happen since this week I will 1) get my drivers license, which means I can 3) go to Bolivia and do the other therapy treatment while I hopefully also find a small job there while staying with my aunt after I 2) look after my dad after his surgery, and after/sufficiently through in Bolivia I can 4) apply to a job in a place that actually likes me and my qualifications that dad pointed out they like me, and do actual biology stuff and also 5) do my GREs so I can 6) go to grad school!
So I am doing much better and am less dead and emotionally bluh, and I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW AND I CAN’T THINK STRAIGHT so I am going to step off this post now.
Dr. Neil deGrasse Tyson has an important message about proper attribution.
I THOUGHT THIS WAS AN ADDED CAPTION BUT THEN I WENT TO THE VIDEO AND IT’S REAL
NEIL ACTUALLY SAID THIS
WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE